Blink

Hi. Nearly 2 weeks after not blogging, here I am again.

In those two weeks, I was so damn busy with school work that I didn't have time to blog. College is damn tiring. You might think I'm not busy right now, but I really am. It's just that I'm having a hard time with a Sociology assignment which is really pointless, since sociology is a minor subject which doesn't have anything to do with my major which is Accounting.

Blink

I've already done an essay on this actually, with the title being "Blink Of An Eye". It was by the way a requirement by my english teacher. This is going to be different though. The essay I submitted was utterly self-centered, as it was all about me.

So a blink is the super quick closing and then opening of the eye. As in, super, super duper fast.

I think we've all experienced incidents when you know, something is suddenly something else, or someone is suddenly someone else. It's so fast you can compare it to a blink. In our life, there really comes a time when everything suddenly becomes different.

Routine, difficulty, people, everything. I think it's easily a high impact thing when you don't expect them or when you didn't want them.

I actually want to share my own experience.

Coming in from high school, I didn't expect college to be as difficult to cope with as what's happening to me right now. I expected it to be quite the same, aside from the fact that I'll be using public transportation instead of being taken to school and being fetched from school.

Back in my class at high school, I was the noisy guy who probably knew so little that he had to speak too much so he can at least say something who was not at all shy. I was also the guy who helped no one, because I was known to be a bit irresponsible. I always had to ask my classmates, especially the smarter ones, what we had to do or what would happen the following day. I was a fun guy too, usually laughing, cracking green jokes with my friends, and they laughed because they thought it was gross, and some would laugh at my impressive bragging skills. My teachers had known me as a person who likes to bug them. I had conservative friends. 6:00pm arrivals at home. Oh my God. Sorry to reminisce.

Then, less than 2 months after graduation, I'm in college. The silent guy. Smart guy. Ask-Him-What-The-Assignment-Is-And-How-To-Answer-It Guy. Initially known as a guy who doesn't have a clue about sex. Only a few teachers notice me. My english teacher even looks like she hates me. The people who I hang out with nowadays are the exact opposite of conservative. 7:15pm arrivals by bus and standing in it.

It all happened so fast that in the first week thoughts have been running in my mind.

"What did I get myself into?"

"Can I handle this?"

"I miss my old life."

Then again, folks what would I get if I complain like that?

You'd pick me up in the streets. I'd be hungry. I'd be dirty.

Basically, I have to do it. It's like medicines which taste bad. You have to swallow it so you can get better.

Abrupt changes really happen in life - you can't take it away. I can not, however, teach anyone not to be shocked by abrupt changes, simply because you can't warn someone as easy as just saying to him or her "be ready". No matter what happens, these changes will happen with you not being totally prepared.

It's how we take the changes along with our lives and live with it. It all depends on how we handle it. At first, I found myself being sad most of the time, missing my classmates and my school, but it all eventually fades away with acceptance, like what I have said in my other blog entries. Change, like most people say, is the only thing that does not change. If we accept our fates well, we can live our lives with so much more ease, whether our fates contain abrupt or gradual changes.

We have to be the ones to adjust to changes. We can never wait for the changes to adjust to us, because that never happens. If you keep whining, nothing will happen. We all just have to move on.